NaPoWriMo, Day 25

As the plane finished its ascent, I looked out the window, wondering what it would be like to jump from 10,000 feet up. What it would be like to imagine the fall and the landing running smoothly. What it would feel like to be light instead of heavy, alive instead of numb. What it would be like to sleep through the night without the teeth of anxiety gnawing at my lungs. What it would be like to look a stranger in the eye, smile, and let words unfold. What it would be like to sit behind the wheel, sing in public, make a new friend, snag the dream job. What it would be like to fly. How easy it is to be anything while 10,000 feet up in the air.

Prompt from @amykaypoetry – Write a poem based on your day (dialogue you overhear, a thought you have, or something you encounter today). Shape your observations into a poem.

30 Days of Yoga, Day 3: Learning to be the Neutral Observer

I felt a bit all over the place during today’s practice. I started out strong. My breath was deep and steady. My body felt relaxed. My movements were in sync with my breath.

Then my lack of regular practice over the past few months showed up in a big way.

Observing the Struggles

The first thing that through me off was three-legged downward dog. Not any three-legged downward dog. No. Today Adriene asked us to pulse the raised leg, and… I’ll admit it. I panicked. I gave up. Even moving to all fours to pulse the lifted leg felt like too much. However, I did redeem myself when I switched to pulsing the left leg. I latched on to my breath, still going strong, deep, and steady. I re-centered, re-focused, and was able to maintain the pose and movement.

The second struggle was the rest of the practice. No, I’m kidding. Mostly I just struggled with Warrior II, side angle pose, and tree pose. I was a bit alarmed surprised that I struggled with these poses because they’ve never been too difficult for me. This was the first time I had to keep my big toe on the ground during tree pose. I just could not maintain my balance. Continue reading 30 Days of Yoga, Day 3: Learning to be the Neutral Observer

30 Days of Yoga, Day 2: Building a Foundation

Wow. What an amazing, transformative practice today!

I have to admit, I was a little impatient during yesterday’s practice. But I reaped the benefits of sticking with it in today’s practice. And while that impatience creeped up once or twice during today’s practice, I felt much more mindful, patient, and aware. I surprised myself by sinking deep into poses like Downward Dog and Child’s Pose—deeper than I’m normally able to. My body was r e l a x e d and open to it. My mind was hyper present and aware but not overthinking every movement.

I think that’s what they call letting go.

Day 2’s theme is Foundation. I practiced bringing awareness to my own yogic foundation. I found that it is surprisingly strong but definitely needs some tending to. Today’s practice added a solid layer to that foundation. I also stepped off the mat feeling completely blissed out, both physically and mentally. Ah, the rewards of yoga! Continue reading 30 Days of Yoga, Day 2: Building a Foundation

Book Review: The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself by Michael A. Singer

You have to break the habit of thinking that the solution to your problems is to rearrange things outside. The only permanent solution to your problems is to go inside and let go of the part of you that seems to have so many problems with reality.

– Michael A. Singer, The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself

 

the untethered soul cover e-reader white hydrangea bushThe Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself by Michael A. Singer is a heart-opening, soul-awakening guide to freeing yourself from the boundaries and limitations your habitual thoughts, emotions, and energy patterns build inside of you. Drawing from awareness-creating techniques like meditation and mindfulness, Singer explores the path to consciousness, happiness, and inner peace through the practices of letting go, staying present, and pushing out of your comfort zone.

As a continuing explorer of the inner self and someone deep in the throes of battling her own fears, anxieties, negative thoughts, and sometimes skewed mindset, I thoroughly enjoyed my journey through this book. I found so many nuggets of wisdom and gentle reminders of what life can be like when I let go of that which does not serve, stay present, eschew judgement, and live outside of my comfort zone.

As much as I enjoyed The Untethered Soul, I did struggle with a few aspects of the book: Continue reading Book Review: The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself by Michael A. Singer

At-Home Yoga Retreat Series: “Reclaiming Your Center” Day 3

My experience during Yoga With Adriene’s “Reclaiming Your Center” At-Home Retreat continues with Day 3.

Photo via yogawithadriene.com.

Day 3

Two rounds of yoga and 12 minutes of meditation had me feeling focused, productive, and zenned out yesterday. I felt extra aware of my breath throughout the day (yay mindfulness!) and noticed that my breaths were smooth, deep, and steady. A true breath of fresh air for someone who often experiences shallow breathing and a tight chest (hello anxiety!).

That’s what a weekend full of yoga, meditation, nature, and introspective journaling will do for ya!

I ended my day with the most beautiful nature walk along Minnehaha Creek. I’m so blessed to live just steps away from so much green and all the life that blossoms along the creek. Continue reading At-Home Yoga Retreat Series: “Reclaiming Your Center” Day 3

At-Home Yoga Retreat Series: “Reclaiming Your Center” Day 2

My experience during Yoga With Adriene’s “Reclaiming Your Center” At-Home Retreat continues with Day 2.

Photo via yogawithadriene.com.

Day 2

View of Lake Nokomis from my yoga mat.

Started my day with a morning yoga class at Lake Nokomis. The instructor guided us into our morning flow by asking us to observe:

  • 3 Sounds: Lawn mowers, instructor’s voice, bare feet shuffling in grass
  • 3 Sights: Sun-soaked lake, glistening grass, dancing leaves
  • 3 Physical Sensations: Aching ankle, calm mind, open chest
  • 2 Smells: Wet grass…wet grass

Super fitting for Day 2’s activity!

I ended my day with Core Power Wake Up before zenning out in post-yoga meditation and journaling on Day 2’s prompt. Continue reading At-Home Yoga Retreat Series: “Reclaiming Your Center” Day 2

Not in the Mood: Musings on Turning 30

Everyone dreads turning 30. Well, not anymore. At least that’s what social media would have me believe. Then again, even my therapist said 30 isn’t what it used to be. 30 is the new 23.

What I’m really trying to say is: I’m not in the mood to turn 30. The timing is inconvenient. Let’s press pause on this.

I thought that by the time I was 30, I’d have a career, a tribe, a greater sense of self. I thought I’d have my shit together.

I don’t.

I’m unemployed, on a cliff edge, staring down at a dream career, working up the nerve to jump off. I’m six months into a new city and have yet to make a single friend or acquaintance. My sense of self wavers between “Who am I?” and a sing-songy, movie-line-spewing cartoon. Most days I don’t feel like a person. I have no preference. My personality is null—an empty void. Continue reading Not in the Mood: Musings on Turning 30